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Mackizme

Joined October 2009 and calls Pick My Brain! home.

53 stories, 4 challenges, 97 comments, and 12 friends

Just looking for a community and a place to share ideas and inspiration. Read my ficlets to learn my story. ~MACK

Stories

  1. Cheer!

    Now finally I feel like I am lovable and real And oh so ready to reveal myself , So ready to cast out the doubt and fear. To wait in peace to be awakened from this coma in my heart, This shutting down of systems one by one, I love my pulse to start...

  2. Rattle

    He sat in the same chair he always sat in on a Saturday evening. It was old, ripped and faded, and it creaked when it swiveled, but he loved it anyway. His fingers tapped the keys innocently, as he busied himself on various entertainment and social net...

  3. Choice

    Sitting on the beach, arms stretched out behind me for support, fingers squished in the sand as I stare out at the rolling waves and crashing ice-caps. The day is slowly becoming cloudy. I am alone. I stand up, uncertain, and gradually wander away from...

  4. Melt All Over Again

    “Well, what is it then?” I demand a little too harshly. “It’s hard to tell you when you’re acting like this. Can’t you give me another chance? A chance to… to gather my thoughts…to figure out how I’...

  5. No, I Don't Think So

    I shake my head stubbornly. “No, I don’t think we can, Jane. You don’t seem to value honesty the way I do. You keep contradicting yourself and going back on your word.” “When have I ever given you my word?? It’s beca...

  6. Now Everybody's Pissed

    Shocked and panicked, I start the car engine. Jane is storming down the sidewalk towards us. Gabe is silent. I shake my head, irritated with him. “Jeez, Gabe. Now look what’s happened. What do we do now, huh?” I drive towards Jane and...

  7. Shhh! Just Watch.

    “Gabe, what the hell are we doing?” I whisper furiously, both relieved and sad to be leaving Jane’s side. Gabe climbs into the car and slams the door as I pull away from the curb. “Won’t this look a bit weird that I just s...

  8. What I Wish Would Happen (Part V: You Are Everything)

    An alarm bell is clanging somewhere in my head. I ignore it. It continues to blare. She doesn’t really love you. You’re just second best. I am reluctant to react. It takes all the self-control I possess to tear myself away from her. “...

  9. What I Wish Would Happen (Part IV: Kissing) (Mature)

  10. What I Wish Would Happen (Part III: Wow)

    “So you’re basically saying that I… I’m your fallback. Your plan B. Your second choice.” The words spill out of my mouth and swirl in the open air between us. I wish they didn’t sound so bitter. I wish I could pull t...

  11. Country, huh?

    She motions for me to pull into the nearest parking lot, so I do. After I’m thoroughly panicked and we’re both parked, I hear her door slam and then she’s at my window. I turn off the music and roll down the window. “No, keep i...

  12. Double Take

    I jump in the car and back out of the driveway, glad to have something to take my mind off…things. And I’m worried about Gabe. And guilty that it was my voice that interrupted what should have been his moment with Austin… whatever it ...

  13. What I Wish Would Happen (Part II: Jane Explains)

    Is this a dream? Did I fall asleep? I can’t help but wonder as she hangs up her jacket on the back of my door. “So,” I say, breaking the silence. “Why are you here? How are you?” I silently kick myself for sounding so awkw...

  14. What I Wish Would Happen (Part I)

    As I sit at the computer, typing away on the smooth black buttons on the keyboard, I hear a slight tapping on the door. It creaks open a little. I stop typing. “…Yes?” I have no idea who it is. “Rose?” My sister sometimes ...

  15. The Heart Knows

    Heartache is by far the most poignant part of love. Before you experience it, all the talk about feeling your heart ache or break sounds like just another cliche. But it’s not. The moment you realize that the person you are looking at has the mos...

  16. Threshold

    It looks and seems so simple from the other side of the plate glass. Looking on at the others, I can see the next step. It is so obvious, glaring bright red like Rudolph’s nose. But they never see it. It looks and seems so simple… from the ...

  17. The Stiff Wind

    It is so real. This constant awareness of my gut and all my innards bumping around, spinning, whirling, cartwheeling…dropping fast. It was flying. A dream of romance. A dream close enough to touch, close enough to believe. Close enough to breathe...

  18. Words of Wisdom

    “I’m scared.” “Of what, dear?” Her deep, grandmotherly voice always soothes me. “…Losing. Losing myself? I don’t know. I don’t understand.” I bury my head in her sweater, confused and upset. S...

  19. Numb Hope

    No longer feel the pain of it Heart is numb from feeling it Candle of hope no longer lit Can’t go back to the daily grit Left in the darkness all alone Emptiness now that you’re gone Try to put it in a song But all the words, they come out ...

  20. Now What?

    The big question. Now what? I sit on the edge of my bed, guitar resting on my knees, trying to put my newfound numbness into words… into a song, but my mind can’t make sense of it all. The words fly past, waiting for me to pluck one for the...

  21. Withdrawal

    I’m glad Gabe has gone off with Austin, because I really want to be alone. I don’t know why. I’m always alone, and it’s sure not something I enjoy. I guess I feel like wallowing in my misery. Fun. Numb, I drive home silently. No...

  22. Contradiction and Rejection

    “Wait, what?” I repeat, numb. “You like someone else? You said you liked me. In your nature? You said you weren’t good at flirting…you said…this is so confusing. You keep…” I take a deep breath, trying to blink away the incoming tears. ...

  23. Nothing's Written In Stone

    “I don’t understand," she says, looking concerned."It was just harmless flirting. Nothing’s written in stone. We’re not dating yet or anything. And who are you to be so jealous?” Yet. Not dating yet.“I’m not jealous,” I blurt...

  24. Against All Reason

    “Sorry,” I blush, hopeful once more. Almost immediately the image from the party blots out all else and I am filled with an unexplainable rage. I struggle to hold it in. Looking at her, I can tell that she knows something is wrong. “S...

  25. Like Before?

    After parting with Gabe, I head for my locker with a heavy heart and a determined step. I can’t decide whether or not I want to face her. I can’t decide if I’d rather understand or punch her in the face. I keep expecting to see her ar...

  26. No Biggie?

    “No biggie? …Shay, did you like her?” “What? I didn’t even know her. Never spoken to her in my life.” “That wasn’t the question.” He is quiet. Finally I manage a glance in his direction. His face is...

  27. Driving While Intoxicated

    “Shay? Shay, are you OK?” His voice is a distant echo. I’m not even sure who he is or if he’s talking to me. I don’t even care. I can’t get those dueling images out of my head. Her eyes, and widening smile. Her face,...

  28. Shay Discovers

    I left Gabe alone because I knew he’d find that junior soon enough, and I had an agenda of my own. I walked around in the crowd for awhile, unsure if she was here or not. Her. That beautiful girl who was staring at me yesterday at the game. I fel...

  29. LucanKnight?

    She looked up, startled at his outburst. “Please! Mister…Brian, if you would sit down, we’ll try not to make a big scene.” He turned and noticed that a few curious faces were peeking through the window in the door. “My ap...

  30. Procrastinate Now...Don't Put It Off

    The pen is in my hand, but I can’t bring myself to write. The music makes my foot tap and my head nod. Involuntarily I start singing along. I start as the little red number pops up on my Facebook screen. I have a notification. I hesitate and glan...

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