You Know Who You Are

Avatar Author: Raegan Dauterive I'm a girl whose interests are so eclectic and diverse it's almost schizophrenic. I'm really a wild-eyed old woman from the past that made it here in a time machine made out of a DeLorean. *July 9, 2010*: I kind of want... Read Bio

You leave me strumming at the veins in my wrist like they were strings on a guitar.
I can’t kill myself, I’m already dead inside.
You leave me screaming into pillows, unsatisfied.
For you I have cried.

Because of you I can’t hear a Queen song without falling to my knees and sobbing.
Everything reminds me of you,
Leaves my tired heart throbbing with pain.

All I wanted was to be your girl,
to be held in your arms as the world went by.
I just wanted the chance.
We could’ve been so good for each other.

Now you’ll never know.
Goodbye.

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  1. Avatar Pyropunk 51 (PPP LoA)

    ooh, that sounds so familiar.

  2. Ahfl_icon THX 0477

    Interesting sentiment. I was especially intrigued by the ‘wanting a chance’ idea, that somehow the relationship could work despite whatever his faults are if he would just allow the possibility. It seems like a very romantic notion, especially in the face of the guy having so horribly disappointed her.

  3. Avatar Raegan Dauterive

    In some cases, the wondering hurts the most. You just want a chance to see what the relationship would be like, because otherwise you’re stuck wondering for the rest of your life and to even imagine liking someone else in the same way seems a daunting task :/

  4. Avatar The Dark Hillbilly

    Well, there’s an old cliche about there being plenty of fish in the sea. But it’s very true. No matter how enamored with someone you are, you’ll find someone else and move on when it’s over.

  5. Avatar Raegan Dauterive

    I’m actually probably the exception to that cliche.
    I’m 19 and have only had half a boyfriend :(

  6. Avatar DoItForScience

    Pardon me for being harsh, but…

    oh, grow up. 19 and only had half a boyfriend, so what? You’re only 19! Dark hillbilly is right. Plenty of people have felt themselves to be an exception to that old cliche, and proven themselves wrong with time.

    Also, most people, male or female, really don’t have a clue what they want so soon after getting out of high school. The things that are desirable in high school and in the real world can be very different and it takes most people time to adjust to that. So be easy on yourself. Perhaps try to see the good in some new people.

    Queen songs, huh? Freddie Mercury?

    oh yeah, I should probably rate the ficly, since it is a good one.

  7. Avatar Raegan Dauterive

    I just don’t want to settle for less than what I want :/

  8. Avatar DoItForScience

    That’s a problem or two, thinking that you are settling, and thinking that you are getting less.

    Remember that old lesson, no matter how good you are at something, there’s somebody better? It’s true for him too. Seriously, this guy didn’t even give you a chance. A callous person probably isn’t right for you.

  9. Avatar Mr.Gabriel

    Sad and depressing, but very powerful.
    Enjoyed the words that were used.

  10. Avatar Raegan Dauterive

    ::sigh:: yeah, it is depressing.
    That’s the kind of feelings I’ve been dealing with.
    And to be fair, he never gave me a chance because at the time he was dating a girl he believed was sent from God to him, even after they broke up eight months later, not even a month passed before he started going out with some girl he had dreams at night of marrying. They’re still together.

  11. Avatar Mr.Gabriel

    Dont sweat it Raegan, obviously if it takes him that short amount of time to recover from an eight month relationship he couldnt be worth less.

  12. Avatar The Great and Powerful Krulltar

    This was lovely and dark, but I doubt Fat Bottom Girls will ever cause me to sob.

  13. Avatar Raegan Dauterive

    Ah, good point… but anytime Somebody to Love sneaks up on my iPod’s Shuffle Playlist it knocks down my heart.

  14. Avatar DoItForScience

    Big fan of “I Want o Break Free”

  15. Avatar Marli

    Hi Raegan, Sorry about the hurt but us girls always take a beating at love. (if it makes you feel better the stats say men fall harder than us but we recover faster.)

  16. Avatar thelostgirl

    Well, if it makes you feel any better, I’m twenty four and I’ve never had a boyfriend.
    I liked the first line. Very vivid imagery.

  17. Avatar Raegan Dauterive

    Thanks.
    Wow I can’t believe this is featured .
    I just wrote it on a whim after having an awful conversation that caused a storm in my heart.

  18. Avatar Bartimaeus

    You will eventually find the love you deserve, my friend. The loss of one does not mean the loss of all. You still have a lot in this world to look forward to =)

  19. Avatar Mighty-Joe Young (A.K.A Strong Coffee)(LoA)

    nd the number best way to get back at an ex for breaking your heart.
    Take the power from them….Realize you are an awesome person who doesnt deserve rejection. Become valuable to yourself so you will be valuable to your future dream man (who by the way is out there looking for you RIGHT NOW).
    The best revenge is living happily ever after.

  20. Avatar Raegan Dauterive

    ^ Thanks, that actually makes me feel better lol I’ve missed your comments :)

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