I am alone tonight and all I can hear is the rain falling. Watching the rain out my window, more tears fall from my eyes. Today I tried to pretend that everything is ok, that I am ok. Here, by myself, I can’t pretend any longer. The truth is things haven’t been the same.

I had to watch you walk away. So many things left unsaid, and will always be left unsaid. Now I’ll never know what the forever we planed will be like and I regret not knowing that loving you was all that I was trying to do. This is what hurts me the most, it kills me inside. If I could go back, I would say everything I saved in my heart and left unspoken.

The pain punches me again and I find myself running outside. The cold hard rain drenches me as I run as far as my feet will take me. All our memories flash in my eyes. They drive me farther and farther until I collapse on my knees from exhaustion.

Looking up, I scream into the night sky. Why didn’t you know that all I was trying to do was love you? Why didn’t you know…?