Sensory Overload. Everything hurt. I had been the same… but it hadn’t hurt before. I hadn’t felt it before. My head was pounding, ears ringing, palms bleeding, legs shaking, feet throbbing, my whole body aching. Years of pain had been waiting to be released, waiting for a wall to come and stop me, to come and make me endure it.
The wall came too close and I hadn’t even realized it until it broke me. It caused me to feel, overwhelmingly feel.
Everything hit me so hard- pain and hurt and sadness and joyand excitment and anger. I was wounded. I was weak. So they all hit me. They all affected me.
I wanted to go back to not feeling anything- to being numb again. But I couldn’t.
Because that’s what happens when you get too close.