It itches. That’s the best I can describe it. I haven’t cut it in YEARS. But today…it’s almost as if it WANTS me to cut. What the fuck?!
It’s like I MISS IT!????
But, I’m so far beyond that.
but the itch
that fucking insistent you must do this or else (or else what who the hell knows) itch!!!!!
I look at my wrist.
it looks odd without cuts
I look at my belly…same thing
I look at my neck…
I think rationally (or so I hope) and these actions are just not an option
but the f u c k i n g I T C H!
and the NNNNEEEEEEEDDDDDDD to see the blood.
It’s as elemental as eating or taking a piss.
I won’t do it. But it’s pretty annoyingly insistent. grrr.