It’s been 40 years but yet sometimes it seems like only yesterday.
I was only a boy when I last saw you and I find myself still thinking often of you.
You left so suddenly no-one expected it but in hind sight it wasn’t a total surprise.
You left a family wondering what happened why you chose the path you did.
Some of it was predetermined by the life you chose.
But some of it was fate and an illness that was so misunderstood.
Even years after you died we still lived in the shame
There are no words to describe the void you left in my life.
But yet because I share this same illness of alcoholism with you.
I do understand and empathize with EVERYTHING you struggled with.
I’m sorry that I never got the chance to know you better
I’m sorry that I grew up being just like you but that’s not a good thing it.
The good thing is I had the chance and got well, you weren’t so lucky
And so i oddly say thank you for without this chance at life who knows where I’d be
Love you and miss you dad…your still 7 year old boy…