I’d put an ‘or’ in the first sentence after the comma. I felt like you repeated yourself in every paragraph. You would describe an action, then tell us what it symbolized, which we can easily interpret on our own. Or you went from despair to happy memory to despair to memory quickly, which does well to convey the waves of emotion, but loses its dramatic punch. Maybe leave out ‘the feeling of’ and just describe it.
Just some suggestions to make this rock. Oh and I read your bio, so this is true, which really is a bad situation to be in. Things will get better with time.
Welcome to ficly, and don’t be afraid to write things that are fiction. :)
Mr.Gabriel
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