Every time you say that I’m selfish
I can’t help but hate myself
I don’t want you to think so little of me
You have to know that I don’t like the way I am towards you

It’s hard to explain the way I feel about you
I’ve never had such a hard time being with someone before
Should it be this hard
Should I have to wonder constantly if I made the right decision

Sometimes I think it shouldn’t but sometimes I think it should
If it were easy then why bother
If it’s hard, doesn’t that make it worth fighting for
Worth putting time and effort into it

Making the right decision can’t always mean
Having that feeling in your stomach of pure joy..
Can it?
I’m not sure, nor will I ever be

For now I cannot finish this story
It’s hard and I’m still confused
No matter what though
I won’t stop trying to figure this out
To figure out what I’m feeling and how I’m feeling.. about you