Starting over is not the easiest thing a person can do, but I feel like it’s about time I had something real in my life that means something to me.

I’m tired of not having someone constant in my life.
I’m tired of being thought of negativly because of my..uhmm…habits with guys.
I’m tired of seeing everyone around me happy while I am lost and scared and all alone.

I’ve decided that what I thought I needed, lust, and what I actually truly need, love, are two very seperate things and I need to start treating them as so.
I’ve decided that I miss the way my life was when I was in a relationship with actual depth and that actually had meaning.
I’ve decided that this time I will correct my mistakes and wait until there is actual love and not lust until I uhm…..“do” things…

Starting over is not the easiest thing a person can do, but it is a little easier knowing that I might actually love you.