Where did I go wrong
Tears course down my cheeks once again as I watch the video. He was quite the charmer and his life was always full.
I lost a friend Somewhere along in the bitterness
The guilt soon follows. Why did I hurt him? I held his fragile little heart in my hand and the only thing I could do was close my fist and let it drip through my clenched fingers. I understand the heart wants what it wants, but did it have to happen in such a cruel manner?
And would I have stayed up with you all night
Maybe if I hadn’t left him, things would have ended up differently. I could have kept him out of trouble. The tears fall faster as I begin to sob.
Had I known how to save a life
I know now that a part of me will always love what could have been, but I also know that it may have never made a difference. I’ll wish forever that I could have been a better friend. The hurt will never go away, but I know he wants us all to be happy.
My breath hitches in my throat as the crying finally ends.