I don’t want to face this. No one is comparing to you. Plenty of guys are around me and none of them can make my heart race like you can. Is this what it will feel like forever? I’m afraid to know… My friends give me a break from the nagging heartache, but can’t make it go away. Your cold words and now cold shoulder is paining me and making it hard to breathe. People tell me to move on, but it seems impossible. What if you’re the Mr. Right that won’t come back? I want to get hit by a bus, fall off a building, or smash my head open to see if I can feel a pain stronger than this. I am losing myself and everyone knows it. Tomorrow I might be ok, but today I miss you. Today I want to see you. Today nothing feels right. Today tears roll down my cheeks. Today I want to beg, I want to plead to get you back… but you can’t hear me. You can’t see me anymore.