February 19th

I could barely make out the tissue box I was grabbing for through my tears. I’m sure everyone can guess what happened. We broke up. Of course on this day I chose to read a book about a girl that commits suicide. She records tapes and tells thirteen people why they contributed to her suicide decision. Right now I can think of one person but don’t worry I’d do that, I’m too afraid of dying. John also gave me his reasons for our break up. I’ll shorten them to thirteen.

1. It’s not you it’s me.

2. You’re too good for me.

3. We never hang out.

4. I feel as though we have grown farther apart since we were together.

5. We’re two different people.

6. There’s no spark.

7. I don’t want to keep being together if we’re not happy.

8. You’re always with your friends.

9. I don’t feel the same way about you.

10. It’s not fair to keep this going when clearly nothing is there.

11. I’ve changed

12. I didn’t want to have to tell you this way but I like another girl.

13. I don’t love you anymore.