“…then they think I’m gonna stroke out.” ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ That made me chuckle. You certainly have a good sense of humor.
I can relate to the internalizing part. From my experience it can be impossible to get rid of unwanted memories or hurtful words and unfortunately they tend to harden the outside. May god help us, or may superman save us— whichever sounds more plausible to you.
Tad Winslow