It is strange what happens in the last moment. The mind grows infinite, capable of processing an entire life in a split second. I see my first birthday, my first pet, my first kiss beneath the bleachers. I remember the feel of my little fingers curled around my father’s finger, how it felt to tie my own shoe, drive a car, the first time I noticed how good the warm sun felt in winter.

There’s also all the embarrassing moments, those things I’d rather have forgotten. Falling down in the middle of the hall in eighth grade. Being turned down for a date to the prom. Answering the door with less clothes on than I intended because I was burning with fever.

And within the kaleidescope of my life I find the checklist, those things that are too important to forget, even now…

What was the last thing I said to those I love?

Did I pay enough attention?

What are my regrets?

What are my blessings?

What are the final words, that I’ll take into eternity?

“Shuttle Challenger, you are clear for launch.”