Dismissed
Pissed
And discouraged

Past abuses nourish
Excuses as they flourish

Key the
Ignition
Dashboard’s lit
Listen
To the radio system
Smoke a cigarette
Inch the volume

Itching from valium
Painful
To numb
Sniffing
A palladium
Of cocaine

Someone’s
In the rearview
Plodding by
My window
Not clear who
Is nodding saying hi
Moving on
Gone

I love this song
Closing one eye
My nose is frozen
I’m high
And wide open inside

I
Slip
More
With
Each
Drip
Coating
My throat
Holding
My life
Slouching where I sit
In the grip of fallacy
Where reality
And I
Coexist
Blurring further adrift

Coping
Roping my arm
Syringe
Heroin injections
Flood like adrenaline
Bloodshot red and orange
Courage
Rage
Exit the vehicle
Step on the stage

Echoing applause
Erupts in the spatial
Coliseum

Then
Fellatio
From different women
Who swallow
My semen

Remember how
That used to happen
Only when you were dreaming?