That was very raw and extremely self depricating. I liked the idea of setting up the paper friends idea to then turn on yourself—made a very effective communication of how low you (the narrator) feels about your role in this relationship and how unequal it was.
The writing could use some polish. You have some run-ons, like the third sentence. It could be fixed by a semi-colon, conjunction, dash, or just making them separate sentences. Same for second sentence of second paragraph.
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