third day in bed sweating profusely never had fever this high brain doing own thing mind split in two part running computations other part me watching not thinking mysterious computations want to interrupt cannot algebraic computations stop solving multiple equations stop in multiple unknowns stop by brute force please stop unsuccessful starting again stop computations running not going to stop stop watching then cannot felt closer to solution that time starting again values drifting between equations looking for optima equations weaving together closer to solution again restarting numbers greek letters mathematical symbols flare solution getting closer keep going do not stop now equations shimmer dance closer that time repeat system of equations begins to beat very close now again feels important so close so very close again system breathes like living animal nearly there again solved checking carefully validated solution real so very important mind fuses together again solution evaporates fever breaks