just like it used to be.
like lemonade held to the roof of my mouth 
 the bitterness curdles as it all tumbles out:
 I never wished to leave you; it never was my heart
 I was a world-class idiot; I nearly fell apart
 I miss the swaying hammock as dandelions fill the air
 with specks of fluff that drift and spin and get caught in your hair 
 I miss the sun that shone from your face with every smile
 and how time stood still for us for that short golden while
 I shouldn’t have thrown autumn upon us, the sky that tortured me
 I wish that sky was clear and blue — just like it used to be.