this is my choice
I can stay the same
miserable beast
that I am
or I can take this opportunity
in vain
and have that chance
to destroy something
I held very
very
dear to me
from the beginning of this era

my life is a choose-your own adventure book
one that I
cheated
and
read ahead on

all of these fates end badly
but which is best for her
is my true question
because I don’t matter
not to me at least
there’s got to be some way to
fight this
because we’re stuck in a rut
in the middle of a pool of quicksand
and my shoes have already fallen
off
and fallen
victim to this mess