everything
is impossible
i can’t think
or breathe
or move
i can barely
keep my head clear
for longer than a few seconds
pain is a beautiful thing
pangs of hunger
make me cringe
in admiration
and the threat
of failing classes
evokes no more than a
smirk
and a forced groan

everyone is angry at me
for doing this to myself
but this is my only choice
what is my alternative

is this really all that bad
compared to the
extreme

because i don’t think so
but why believe me
my head is clouded
just like you say it is