I should feel guilty
I suppose
a reward I don’t
deserve
but I guess it isn’t
all my fault

is depression
a legitimate excuse
from school work?

I accepted defeat
because I am sick
and I prepared for the fall
while I mulled over death

my reaction was
to say nothing
because I don’t deserve this
but I don’t feel I deserve to fail

(failure, of course,
being
relative
in this
instance)

I’d rather play
ignorant
and pretend I’m in bliss
this was the second greatest mistake of my life
the first being my conception