you’re gay
and i was okay with that
and that was fine with me
and we could talk about girls

that
are beautiful
and cute
and not sexy
or hot
like i am forced to
with my male friends

and that was before
i fell in love with you

and now
my heart
is broken more
more
than it ever has been
ever before

because i was more in love
than i ever had been
before

and it took me this long
to figure it out
because it was so deep
and complicated
that i couldn’t recognize it

and now
i am toxic
to you
and i know i am
and i always knew i was
but i just wish
that i could never have had this happen
and nothing will ever be that good again

people like you come along
once in a million lifetimes
and i can’t just let this go
what am i supposed to do
i’ve been asking that question too much
too recently

i need time to let things
sink in
and fall into place
but what do we do in the meantime
we wait
yes, but while waiting
why don’t we hang ourselves
it would give us an erection

tray bong.
tray,
tray,
tray,
tray,
tray,
bong.