i can’t feel
i need to feel
what if i can’t feel
ever again
what if i don’t want to feel
ever again
i feel like
i can’t feel anything
i feel like
i shouldn’t feel anything
i feel like
what do i feel
when i can’t feel a thing
what do i feel
when i can’t even think
my mind is racing again
racing and racing and
racing and racing
and
speeding
and hemorrhaging in my
body
and blood is spreading
throughout
my
genes
and nothing i’m thinking is making sense
and nothing i’m sensing is making thoughts
and nothing is being described just how i want it to be
and nothing is working out
and nothing is happening
and nothing is feeling
and my nerves have stopped working
and my neurons have stopped working
and my brain has stopped working
and my lungs have stopped working
and i want to be able to breathe
i need to step outside
into the frigid air
and i think my heart may stop working
and my body has stopped working