One deep breath
I hold it in until i burst
Praying the next one wont be as painful
I live in a life of my own recipe
1cup self hate
1tea spoon of neglect
1 table spoon of regret
Chill and serve
I hate their smiles
I hate their laughing
Their love
I close my eyes so tight and take one more deep breath
Let it be the last
But i exhale and gasp
Breathing in all the things that i try to over look
Coughing on my own poison
One more breath
I choke it down
Beat my life into submission
Finally. no more