s. a. d. : it's not just an emotion anymore
why hasn’t it yet
occurred to me
that anxiety rules my life
i used to think
that i just hated me
but no, it’s all mankind
the feeling i get
when i speak from my heart
is like intestines filled with lead
with the feelings i get
you’d think that my gut
is the neural receptor for stress
why can’t i talk
when i can use words so well
why do i fear a crowd
a comfortable size
with comfortable folk
but still
i can
not speak.