i’m sorry
it’s just
i’d rather hate you than love myself
and i really don’t want to do either
but it seems i’m forced to do one
or the other
and if you would just stop forcing me
then maybe i could decide something
for
ONCE
in my life

just let me
just leave me be
let me wallow in my loneliness
for just a bit

just let me be
for just a bit
i can do this
if you would just stop trying