i bought a present for you
i took you to the movies
i held your hand
wasn’t that enough?
those were huge steps for me
fragile little guarded me
you’re lucky i talked to you at all

had this happened now
things would be different
you’ve changed
i’ve changed
but my mind hasn’t

i won’t lie and say that i don’t think about it
i won’t lie and say that it meant nothing to me
i won’t lie and say i don’t want another chance

you tried to push me
your friend did too
she would call me every day on the bus
and nag me
“did you kiss her yet?”

i told her that i
was working on it
give me time
give me time
i’m afraid
of what, i do not know
and of what i do not know

she did give me time
she gave me a deadline
she told me i had until may 31st or
you would break up with me
quite unfortunate

needless to say
it never happened
and you didn’t feel obliged to keep her promise

it was
one of her
many
trials