you’re telling me to stop
all these things
that i do
you’re telling me to find
alternatives
that work just as well
but there are no alternatives
help me help me please
you’re telling me to find them
but i just cannot see
give me reasons
give me a reason
why should i stop
i’m not going anywhere anyway
why not just stay here and hope for the worst
please please
please
i get up in the morning
and i go to school
give me credit for at least that
do you know how much effort that takes
when you have no reason to go
or to wake up
so please
just reason with me
and give me reasons
and tell me reasons
how do you expect me to find motivation
when i don’t have any motivation to go looking
just lock me up for the rest of my life
i would be so much happier if i had no control over myself
why
am i still here
surrounded by all this noise
and meaningless
life
and fuck me
fuck
fuck i just can’t stand it anymore
i’m so disgusted with myself
and it’s just disgusting
and i’m tearing this family apart