This is painful to read, stream of consciousness, bring flashbacks, people are hard.

“painful to read”…. wow…
depending on which way you take it, that could be either the worst insult or the best compliment i’ve ever received.
thank you.

that sounded sarcastic and bitchy, but it was actually sincere.

fear can be a powerful motivator, and so can love.

I love where you choose to do line breaks. Breaking up “god damn” and “it” is unexpected and it really works. This one is very good. I can imagine the whole situation perfectly.