Does he want to stay or go? I can’t really tell.
Separating your ideas into paragraphs would help immensely, even when you write a stream-of-consciousness piece like this.
I hope he gets to the wool socks! :)

i think he wants to go, but he has no idea what he will be leaving.

the socks are a kind of concession for the vast unknown, practicality always throws its weight around, even in the most absurd circumstances.