I walk through the hall
after your footsteps as they hasten…
I smell your cologne as you put it on fresh first thing in the morning
as if it were still amidst the air as I walk behind you…
I know you’re here, yet I miss you suddenly
I am taken back…
I myself can’t believe its been 5 years today…
I pour myself a cranberry cocktail
no vodka for me this morning…
If you were still here and it were three pm I would ask if you wanted one…
but its too early in the morning for drinking…I am just thirsty…
Its all these small things that don’t let me forget you…
I am thankful I got to know you
to have you in my life…
Five years has gone by so fast so much has changed…

As if you lit a cigarette in this moment, as we use to sit to share a smoke and cocktail; the smell of smoke surrounds me. Surreal, the reality…you are dead…and gone yet still haunting me.