And at 18, too. That’s a tragedy beyond reckoning. Not only did you two miss out on a lifetime together, but (even though it felt like a forever already) it’s two or three forevers without her coming over to talk and share. The only solace I could note is that I’m betting Lora would rather you remember the good times you DID have. Even with the ephemerality of life, THOSE are eternal.
I lost my best friend in high school while I was in college – I hope that I keep his spirit of wonder and love of fantasy worlds with me.