To those I've hurt
I wish to start this not by explaining what I’ve done but to apologise, for I’m sorry to all those I love it was never my intent to cause you pain but I’m not so naive as to think that my actions will not have hurt those dear to me. At my core I am selfish and I wish I wasn’t. everyday I have endured life and my friends and family are those that had given me any joy and reason to live, but it’s still more painful to live.
My family have been the idealistic people to raise me, they have always been loving and understanding and never looked at me with disappointment but would rather help me through any mistakes I’ve made. My friends are just as exceptional, to have just known any of them would be a privilege, but for them to call me friend is an honour unlike anything else. I don’t deserve either group and I was exceptionally lucky to have had both.
The hardest thing about doing what I will do is not the fear of death but to imagine that I may have hurt those I love.
I love you all,
farewell.