That was depressing and quite a presentation of a mother’s dilemma. I’m not sure what I would do, but it’s worth raising the question.

This reminds me of that Metallica song – “hush little baby, don’t say a word/and never mind that noise you heard./it’s just the beast under your bed/in your closet, in your head.”

Slightly creepy songs aside, this is heartbreaking. The choice between mental health and the stamina for motherhood. I don’t know what I’d do either, but it’s definitely an important question. Or, should she be able to raise a child at all? Lots to think about.

I promise that I’ve written pleasant ficlies! They just seem to get less attention. Thanks for the comments, friends! I have discovered that I really enjoy PoV pieces, particularly monolouge-type pieces. Glad that this character’s voice shone through!

I wonder if it needs the quotation marks. I was thinking about that, and how at first I saw it as a piece of dialog, like she was speaking to someone else. If that’s not the case, and it’s internal, I would say that since it’s written entirely in first person the whole thing doesn’t need to be in quotes!