Very powerful and strange. I liked it.
But this sentence feels off:
“I make my way to the lower section of our February chilled pool and floated in its icy stillness.”
What’s up with the present/past tense here?

Thanks Nuclear, should be float, not floated.

Very tragic, but it feels very real also. I like the clear depiction of why he is so desperate and ready to die. It’s not a common or typical reason, but it rings true.