Very sad bit of free verse/stream of consciousness. A few typos maybe (lots of grammar stuff, but I figured that was at least semi-intentional for the flow and feel), such as a ‘your fading in and out’ and ‘to busy to’. Otherwise an effective build of inner conflict to get to that last line to suggest the nature of the conflict to some extent.

First time submitting anything not expecting perfect. But thanx for the feedback.