I should be crying
I should be…. but I’m not.
He laid me down tonight
Against the black satin sheets
He held me so softly
As if I was his two year old son
He caressed me so lightly that I could hear the light orchestra in the background
He cried with me
As he laid on top of me
His body pressed against mine.
He whispered words in my ears, as he put the blanket around us
“I will always love you for you, Diggy”
And I started to cry
And I said it back to him, " I will always love you for you, Xzavion."
And then, he placed his forehead on mine and said
“This has to end tonight. I won’t hurt you any longer”
I stared at him.
“It has to be this way, Diggy. But we will be friends for life, I promise.”
I should be crying, but I felt like dying in his arms.
I tried to not let it show, but they flowed
“I’m tired of hurting my loved ones, Don’t hate me. I can’t take you hating me. But all this drama around me, I have to do it my way. Its time for me to be a real man. Tell Sliq, I miss our AW moments, but I’m leaving…”