I got out of bed today, Lord knows why.
I got out of bed, and I showered, and I dressed, and I hoped, Lord knows why.
I hoped for an inconceivable notion that today would be different, Lord knows why.
I hoped an unfounded wish that today would not be a repeat of yesterday, Lord knows why.
I wished that it would not cross my mind, the events of yesterday, the day before, and so on, Lord knows why.
I wished that instead of dwelling in one’s past, if you can call it that, that I could wake up and see the truth, Lord knows why.
I thought I could do it, that if I just dreamt hard enough, today really would be a new day, Lord knows why.
I thought I could give myself a chance, today I will do what I want to do, today I will live for me, Lord knows why.
I figured that these small things would be possible, that today I will get a new job, today i’ll do my best to smile, Lord knows why.
I figured that a new day began a new chance, a chance to emerge from this awful place and begin my life.
But today never came.