The feeling was supposed to last forever. We were meant to always feel the way we felt in days gone by.

Sunshine, roses, all that bullshit fed to us in the media day after day after day, I believed it all for a while.

They have the nerve to say that I wanted it this way, that I let it become this way.

Wanted it? Who are they kidding, let it become this way, well thats not so easy to answer. Maybe I did, maybe through complacency I let things slip through my fingers, grain by grain like sand on a beach, thats as good an analogy as any.

So here we are, whats the old saying about ships passing in the night, we are there and then some. I only want to know that there is a way back from this, a road that leads away from this rut and to some place else, anywhere else.

I still see that life all around me, sometimes it’s just in my head. Sometimes its in a photograph or a video. But every now and again, I see it in her eyes. It’s no more than a little spark but it is still there, I have to remember that.