has a very early Evanescence feel to it. Nice use of mispellings and dropping of letters (although, I don’t think you meant to mispell “whch” in 4th stanza 3rd line)

oh and the last line floored me. I loved it.

Lovely ode to derealization and the wondering that occurs as we try to make sense of life. I wasn’t a fan of the dropped letters, but I’m a traditionalist, so take that for what it’s worth.