It is one of my worst fears realized… I am alone. What I thought was in my grasp was just a figment. It was really all in my head. Every look he gave me, every flirt, every smile, every conversation meant nothing to him and everything to me. All I have left is my ability to breathe. He took time and memories away which can’t be returned.

I lay down on to my bed. Tears that reveal how desperate I feel, how hurt I feel, how terrible I feel go streaming down my face. How could I have tried so hard and have nothing to show for it? How could I not have seen it? How could I have wasted so much time?

I feel so small and so unimportant. I regret everything I have done that lead me to this point. What can I learn from all of this? Right now it seems like nothing, just a bunch of mistakes. I feel so broken and weak. I thought I was stronger than this. Siting up, I rub my eyes and stare into nothing. After several hours of crying and regreting, one thing is clear: love can break the strongest wall you have built.