I always noticed their relationship. And yet, I hung on to this slimmer of hope. That we all liked each other equally. That no one was choosing one person over the other. That we shared everything with each other. I was wrong. I am not part of this best friend relationship. I am merely just the 3rd wheel. And I try to understand. But no matter what I tell myself, it still hurts.. And yet, I can’t do anything about it. Im not pushy. I can’t force someone to like me over the likes of another. I just hoped beyond hope that we could all like each other equally. But I was wrong. I truly understand the pain of being backstabbed now. And apparently I have backstabbed too, although not aware of it. And yet, I will not share with my feelings with my friend. For I am not the only one going through a hard time write now. So I will not burden them further. I will keep the pain locked up. And no matter how much I hope that this will all blow over, I get this feeling in my gut that I will always be the 3rd wheel. It hurts.