The 30 year old’s body made up for his face. Though I didn’t see much of it considering my eyes were closed most of the time. I had to hold back the tears, because I knew then, that there was no turning back.

I unconsciously wake up at 5:00, and thank God for it because that gives me time to still go to school. I sneak out of the man’s bed, grab my clothes and head for the bathroom. After my clothes are on, I quietly walk out his door, careful to not wake up his children.

I decide to head home, since my parents are probably at work or passed out. I sneak in through my window and get ready for school. Without much enthusiasm I prepare myself to see Ethan’s face again and head out my door.

I avoid Ethan for most of the morning, while acting like everything is fine to everyone else. Brother Matthew reminds us of the test he is giving out. I sigh, because I was stupid enough to forget again. I’m going to fail this test, if I don’t do something quick. I raise my hand.

“May I please go to Confession?” I ask.