She knew it. I know she knew it. I liked her, but more than that. I have already fallen in love with her. I wonder what she was thinking. My self-consciousness brought myself to think:
She thinks I’m ugly, she’ll never think I’m anything good. Look at all these football kids, all these basketball kids. I’ll never be them. All I wanted was to say Roni? Oh. My girlfriend! but i’ll never achieve that, the only thing I really want. The one thing I feel I need in my life. I saw her in lunch that day, talking to her friend CiCi, who I also knew, very very vaguely. I smiled. She caught my eyes and they locked with each other. She smiled, and blushed. I noticed it.
What is this?
Is she embarrassed to be seen smiling at a kid like me?
See.. There’s nothing good to me. I should just give up. It’s not like there’s anything worth chasing after about me..