is it bad to aspire
to be
posthumously praised
for some reason
i cannot
accept praise
when i’m alive
only when i’m dead
can i look down
and really appreciate
the person i was
like they do
but right now
i can’t stand myself
i can’t stand people
and i can’t stand
their praise
even if its sincere
no
especially if its sincere
and i
don’t
know
why