i have
three notebooks
currently
in my possession

one is completely full
a purple journal
i bought from staples
for about $7.99
two hundred pages
eighty one poems
(i only write on one side of the page because)
(…)
(actually i’m not quite sure why)

the other is half full
a composition book
that i painted
to look like misa amane’s
death note
when I was in seventh grade
and wanted to impress girls
i wrote all of these poems
in a week’s time
during a trip
to my trailer
in a faraway land
where there are no cell phone towers

the other
is just about half empty
it is black
and a moleskine
and i am writing in it
quite often.
the first ten pages or so have been ripped out
because of stupid
things
that i did
and that i wanted to forget
and the first seven pages that remain intact
contain a highly classified
suicide note
and then about eleven more poems
mostly about death
and not much else