what am i thinking
what is this reality
i have the strangest headache
i just want to sleep
but i have to wake up
and i have to be real
and maybe i should drink
for the first time in weeks
and maybe i should take these pills
maybe i should put them
directly into my brain
and maybe i should breathe with comfort
and comfort
and be back into the wombs of sleep
this acid trip my foetal dreams
and this oxycodone my
mother’s warmth and sound
as nothingness sweeps over me
and i can feel everything that i need to
and nothing that i don’t
because the front is not the edge of sleep
and the end is not the back
but i can’t be fucked to care enough to
do something at all