My Son, My Heart

Avatar Author: Reaver19 When you're knocked down, get back up and get your ass back in the fight! Read Bio

Seeing my first born son open his eyes for the 1st time was the 1st time a part of me died.

Yup. You see, Jameson was born with a congenital heart defect which affected the flow of blood to his lungs. His mother and I knew the entire pregnancy. Fuck yeah it was tough. But in knowing this my fears and concern for MY life became irrelevant and in time I died inside.

After countless Dr. visits and tests we were told he would need several surgeries to correct this malformation and even then they weren’t sure if he would be 100%. My self importance and selfishness then died. Two seperate times, 2 death’s.

My son is now 3 and is proving everyone wrong. He has more energy than I can handle and is smarter than his mom and I combined. Through my son I was able to let die the useless parts of my being and was reborn a new and better person. He has taught me what it means to live and to appreciate and respect death in all aspects of life. My son gave me a 2nd chance at life.

To my son, my heart.

Love Daddy

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  1. Avatar Jim Stitzel

    This is sweet and lovely. It amazes me how much being a parent completely changes the way you see yourself and the world.

  2. Avatar Reaver19

    Thank you Mr. Stitzel, it indeed has changed me.

  3. Avatar Jim Stitzel

    Kids do that, somehow. My daughter is 15 months old now, and my world is a much better place with her in it.

  4. Avatar LittleSecrets

    I recently read an autobiography about a favorite writer of mine. During his early writing career he attempted suicide several times. Eventually he did need to kill himself, but he did not have to do so physically. He had to kill the part of him that he hated in order to become the best he could be. I think that this is true for a lot of people to grow into who they need to be.
    This story was truly touching because it came from the heart, and I think the people who will read this will appreciate that.

  5. Avatar remembrancer

    I always appreciate it when a story rings with real emotion. I also enjoyed the idea of dying as changing instead of a very final sort of ending. There is still an ending but, in this case, life does not end with death.

  6. Avatar Reaver19

    Thank you for the kind words and feedback everyone.

  7. Avatar Eloquent Mess {(LoA)}

    This is beautiful. :-)

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