Holding Back

Avatar Author: iLive The Hard Way I'm a nearly 20 year-old student who's new to the public writing game. I like poems if you couldn't tell. I'm open to any hints, tips, or tricks if you got 'em! Writing has always been very therapeutic for me. Hopeful... Read Bio

So much tension, so much pain,
I feel so much for you,
Why don’t you feel the same?

All this time, it was going so well,
Suddenly reality hits,
And now I want to yell

Not at you, but at the world,
For tricking me yet again,
I hate how it unfurls.

I do feel deceived,
Some would say led on,
This isn’t what I imagined,
Why are your feelings for me gone?

Hurt and confused.
(That’s the only description.)
I’d ask you these questions,
But I know you’d dismiss them.

Was it something I said?
Was it something I did?
Is there something you’re not telling me?
Why did your feelings for me rid?

I don’t want you to be angry,
I don’t want you to be sad,
I don’t want you to cry,
But why do you seem so glad?

I thought I made you feel special,
I thought I brought you joy,
I thought we looked cute together,
I thought you loved me as your boy.

We are surely changing,
But I hope this transition doesn’t fade to black.
So for now I’ll be forcing a smile,
And it’s all because… well, I’m holding back.

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  1. Avatar Twyst

    very palpable pain. I know this pain.

  2. Amj Lone Writer

    Beautifully worded. Much better than my poetry, the emotion can be felt.

  3. Avatar iLive The Hard Way

    Thanks, Lone =D

    and I obviously know how you feel, Twyst

  4. Avatar OpenSkies

    very relatable. Anybody who has experienced any sort of heartbreak will connect with this.

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