Jarod,

This is my final goodbye to you Jarod. I know that this is going to be hard for you, but I know you can get through it. You need to live. You are the one Mom loves. I want you to go to college and get a good job. Maybe you will meet someone, fall in love with her, and get married. And for you to have the kids I never had a chance to have…

The truth is, Jarod, that everyone is expecting greatness from you. And just because I couldn’t handle the pressure doesn’t mean you can’t either. I believe in you. Don’t follow my examples Jarod. Learn from my mistakes. And when your kids ask about me, tell them exactly what happened.

And please don’t feel bad about me. I wasn’t going to amount to anything, and I was just wasting everyone’s hopes and dreams.

So get on with your life. Never look back. Do what I say, and you will find happiness.

I loved you Jarod. You were my brother. You were my hero. Now go out there and make me proud.

Yours Forever,
Madison